I want, just once, to be in an intimate moment and have no concerns about what I look like, what he thinks of me, what I’m doing there, what I will say in the morning, what he’ll tell his friends, what I’ll tell myself if he doesn’t call in the morning, what he’ll pretend to want from me, what he’ll think about my inability to control my noise level when I am in the act of enjoyable sexual activities, how I might romanticize this moment for the rest of my life, how I might regret the act once it is done, how he might think my body moves out of tempo, how I might not like his tempo, how there might be absolutly no good reason why I should be there with him at all except that this song happens to be on and it makes me loose all defenses. I want, one day, to turn some music on, turn the lights down low, and truly loose control with someone. This one song almost makes me feel like maybe someday I could
Love Is the Drug
